By Chukwukwe Eugenia Adaku
On moving on
Moving on is a process that you would undergo for the rest of your life. You could not just simply say you have gotten over someone in just a matter of weeks, months
or even years. You could not say that someone has finally moved on just because he is already with someone new or he is doing so well with his life. You could not just say you have moved on from someone when you are no longer searching for his face in the crowd or you could spend a year not even contacting him. One does not simply move on like that. One does not move on completely at all.
Once we love someone, a part of us would forever be attached to them that is why they have the power to hurt us entirely. And this is also the reason why we are completely devastated the moment they have decided to walk away. People around us would say that it is okay, that we could move on from them but how could we just
simply move on from them when a part of us is lost with them forever? It is because we never move on. We just learn to live without them. We just learn to love someone else that is not them. We just learn to heal the pain that they have given us and we learn to feel happiness without them so we think they don’t matter anymore. But
they still do.
You have to admit that every once in a while, you still think of them. You still wonder how could it be if they never said goodbye. You still ask a lot of what ifs inside your head just because you are still attached to them, it will never change. And once you see them again even after a very long time, you would feel a strange feeling inside your chest and it is the hole in your heart that could only be filled by them. You may try to ignore them or be civilized by saying hi just for formality but you could never deny the fact that a part of you still longs for them.
Moving on is a very hard process because you have to spend every single day of your life on doing it. You have to convince yourself that you are over them and you have to ignore that part of you that still wants them. Who says moving on is an easy thing? No one. And sometimes, one does not move on at all.