by Chukwukwe Eugenia Adaku
Some guys like to proclaim all the things they’d do for the person they love. Sometimes the actions are sweet or chivalrous. Other times they’re melodramatic or not quite right. “At night, lying together under the same sheets, I’d give up all the covers if you seemed cold.”
Wait…no I wouldn’t. Then I’d be cold. If I detected so much as a shiver or tug at the sheets, I would not surrender an iota of fabric. I’d pull you close to me, nestle you in tight and press you against my chest, throw an arm around you, and enclose you in love and warmth and the sheets around me too. I’d rather be warm and cozy together, you know.
“If we were walking down the street and came across a puddle too big to go around, I’d lay down and let you walk across me to stay dry.” You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. No way in hell would I do that. If there was a puddle too daunting to cross (we’ll assume this isn’t an occasion for puddle- stomping and splashing and fun), I’d immediately scoop you up and hold you like a new husband would his wife crossing the threshold of their home for the first time, tread carefully across the miniature lake and keep you safely above. And I’d only let you down after we crossed if you really, really insisted.
“I would give up anything to see you happy. I’d even give up my love.” This one’s a bit trickier. Melodramatic? Yeah. But it’s borne from honesty, too. Even so…I still would not do that. Never before has your happiness come at the expense of mine, and vice-versa. Everything has been mutual and reciprocal. And it will continue to be, both in cases of sadness and joy. But never will I consent to giving up my love; never will I relent to unsureness and doubt; never will I allow anything to prevent my true feelings from existing. I would not give up on love to make you happy. I’d do everything possible to make you happy with love. If it existed before, it can exist again. And if it continues to exist in some subdued, submerged place, I’m determined to bring it out of hiding. I don’t want to give up on what I want, what I need, what I’ve already got. I won’t give up on us. God knows we’re worth it.